From being my partner in crime to acting like an over protective sister, you have always been by my side. I've known you for several years now and I have always admired the bold and strong woman that you are. You have inspired me to be better in ways I cannot imagine and it is the same strength and optimism that makes me believe that you can take care of yourself too. I believe you have the strength and the potential to cope up with the stress that surrounds you and rise above them with flying colors, just like you always have. Whenever I think of you, I picture a happy and excited soul looking forward to explore every new venture through your journey.
However, this time, I am not so sure. You are keeping your wings clutched to yourself and dragging your feet to take even a tiny step. The sorrows are slowly pulling you down from your best and making each day harder for you to get through. You are quieter than before trying to tape your shattered pieces together. I just want you to know that it is not easy for me to see you this way, either. Each day I wish for you to have a normal day, where you work with enough motivation, constantly planning your schedules in your head, and cherish every drop of sweat that you shed. I miss you being you.
I know life is not the same as before, and the changes might be too tough to adjust through. There might be times when you are sitting on your swing with the headphones singing the melody of a soothing flute, but the same joy may not sink in for you. When you have a lip smacking scrumptious meal ready, the empty chair at the dining table might not feel so pleasing. When you leave for work in a hustle and just step back for a moment to wave the usual 'bye', that vacant spot might leave you heavy-hearted. I'm sorry that things are changing and you are having to deal with them all by yourself, but I also know that you are strong enough to get through it. It is too big a deal to simply say, “it's going to be alright”, for I know it will take time. I have faith that time will heal but I hope the healing occurs as soon as possible.
I understand that times are rough and that nothing can replace what you have lost. I probably don't even know completely how it would exactly feel to step into your shoes. But remember, I love you too much to let go. You know I'm just a call away and I would do anything to make sure that you are fine. I am there, whether or not you need me. Sometimes, solitude can sulk you down, so cry it out if you need to, vent till you cannot anymore but find a way to express what you feel. Bottling the erupting emotions won't last long, sweetie!
What you need now is more than just a tight hug, more than just a shoulder to cry, more than just an eat out to break the stress and I've always been there for you. But this time, somehow I cannot figure out what can comfort you. If only I could do something to make the day easier and lighter for you, I would. For it hurts to see you bursting out in frustration for things that don't matter, it hurts to know how you have been crying your nights alone under the blanket, and it hurts to learn that you don't find spirit in the life you lead. But I'm not here to watch depression gulp you down. No way!
I know it is easier said than done, but please, make an effort. Take that small step to bring a smile to yourself. Stop by a beach once in a while on the way to work, take deep breaths in the refreshing morning fogs, walk a mile with your favorite song on loop, talk to the child next door who babbles in an adorable manner, listen to the raindrops trickle down your roof, or feel the warm shower calm your senses to a state of trance. Do anything that will give you some peace of mind, and I hope it calms your chaos.
Life is too unpredictable and there is not one thing I can do make your sorrow vanish instantly, for I know it doesn't work that way. The void that you feel cannot be filled with the patches of comfort. I am not saying it's going to be easy, but it is necessary. It is the best you can do for yourself and those around you. While you wait for time to loosen the reins, keep the child in you alive. Look around and let the reality sink into you. Brace yourself and move forward towards the goals that challenge you. You will find a new YOU ahead.
While countless well-wishers buzz around you passing free advice, I do not want to end up being lost among them. However, I share the common goal, to see you smile from your heart again. I may not be able to stop the downpour, but I will always join you for a walk in the rain.
Whatever happens, life must go on, for even the one who loved you the most, beyond anything in this world, would have said the same thing.
One who can't stand to see you depressed