I am 28year old married male. My past, my childhood was ok, but a few things still bother me a lot. I was born when my parents’ first son at the age of 10 died. As a child, I was always competing against my dead brother. My mother had strong feelings for my deceased brother. She always compared me, my hobbies with him, that irritated me a lot. Even now I feel like I could have a better life if he would not have died, or was not born. My parents spent enough time with my ex brother. So now I can understand their feelings, but when I was a child, I was not aware and when I think about my childhood, I don’t feel like myself.
How can I overcome these thoughts?