14 Dec
saran y

First time im posting here.A little about me and why I am posting;

I have come to believe that I have been depressed most my adult life.
I am 26 year old.
I have smoked cannabis all my adult life, which I am really starting to believe may well be the cause of most of my problems.
The main reason I continue smoking is the thought of boredom when I am not high in my free time, plus I really enjoy it, it is an escape from this mean and greedy world we live in.
I used to have many friends in my youth, whom I have distanced myself from, and can no longer say for sure I have any true friends that I can rely on with this kind of stuff. I don't think it is fair for me to discuss this stuff with my family, I portend all is well, why burden the people I love with my problems.

Suicide, isn't something that I contemplate much, it is rare. There are definitely things in life I want to experience and live. I think I am particularly good at keeping myself entertained, hence why I have been silent for years.

More recently though, and as I get older. I am starting to surrender to the fact that I may need some help..

I have never talked to a doctor about depression. I've always been reluctant to in case I am prescribed some bullshit medicine/pills that just make things worse.

Any advice or similar experience would be appreciated.

Responses 1

  • Vibha Gangal
    Vibha Gangal   May 22, 2018 12:58 AM

    Hey, apologies for the late reply..

    But the first thing that you need to understand is that these drugs are doing you no good but in fact acting as a slow poison, the moment you accept this fact you will develop an urge to fight back.

    Since, you have an issue of drug dependency, probably your depression roots there too, the most appropriate thing to do is to seek professional help as soon as possible without fail.

    Also, I must personally recommend meditation to strengthen your inner capacity and tolerance.

    Good luck :)